- Wedding planning. It sucks and I don't like it. Vendors don't respond in the timeline that I think is appropriate (I'm talking 3-5 business days for a major, well-established catering company/hotel chain). I'm talking about giving these people thousands and thousands of dollars and they can't be bothered to email me back to tell me what they charge and if they can accommodate me?! UGH!
- Norm Coleman. What an ass. Regardless of one's political persuasion, I think that we can all agree that Minnesota deserves a Senator that respects the rule of law. Not one that says, with a fluid 400-ish vote lead, that he won unequivocally and that his opponent should resign himself to that fact and call off the recount of the popular vote that is mandated by state law. Fuck off, Norm. Your record is shameful. You were the Democratic mayor of St Paul until you realized that it was easier to get elected as a Republican. So you switched. You then lost a race for governor to Jesse Ventura, almost lost to Paul Wellstone (RIP, to the most passionate representative the State of Minnesota has ever had in Washington) and may well lose to Al Franken. Hardly a popular mandate, sir, and THREE TIMES now, you have failed to carry your former city in an election! Comments like those he made on Wednesday disgust me. I hope the manual recount of votes prove Al Franken to be the winner in a blow-out.
- Working, but not having any work to do. Say what you will, but when I'm at work I like to be busy. I hate just sitting around, watching the clock tick. Nothing makes the time go faster than wading in thigh-high to a complicated report and making sense out of it. That makes me sound like a huge loser, but it's true. I hate just sitting around at work.
- Getting up every morning for work. I am not a morning person and I DO NOT LIKE being at work before 8am.
- Overly-sweetend things. It's true. I love things that are mostly unsweetened. When I drink juice, it's usually a 25% juice to 75% water ratio--also good for keeping the blood sugar level ... level. I don't really like chocolate, unless it's quite dark or in a flourless-type cake, or with mint. I prefer fruit desserts. Today one of the girls from the Cookie and Cracker desk at work came around with a giant cart full of samples, and I grabbed a box of "Stella D'Oro" 100-calorie packs. They are the most delicious, barely-sweetened cookies ever and I love them. They are, however, billed as "breakfast cookies", which I find odd.
- Baseball being over. For serious! I miss baseball.
- My car. Anyone want to buy a '96 Probe? At this point, I should just get rid of the damn thing. I'm not driving it at all, and by the time I might need a separate car from Ryan, I could save the money I would have spent on gas/insurance/maintenance on a down payment for a newer car. Seriously, if anyone is interested, let me know--I'll consider all offers. It's a cute little car and it's been quite the workhorse for me. I actually sort of love the thing, if it weren't for how teeny-tiny it is, and how not-teeny-tiny my dear Ryan is. Ah well.
This is something of a weekend of milestones for me, as one year ago today I was in Toronto for my lovely friend Paula's wedding! I miss her--and all my Torontonians--dearly. I can't believe it has been a year already! Also (and I thought of this a bit ago and told Ryan, which he was a bit put off by) today marks what would have been the sixth anniversary with university boyfriend Tim. Yowzahs. Sunday, of course, marks both the one year anniversary of Paula's wedding, and the two year anniversary of Tim's and my breakup. I have to say, on the whole, I'm pretty okay with how things have turned out ;)
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Saturday, November 8, 2008
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Once more unto the breach!
Ah, another Sunday night, looking towards the beginning of the work week. It's funny easily you become comfortable with a lifestyle: When I was first laid off, I freaked out with all of the time that I had at home, doing nothing, watching daytime television, etc. I quickly got used to it. Now, going to work feels so very strange.
I think we are starting to get down to brass tacks on wedding things. We've gone to look at a number of places: Blaisdell Manor, Van Dusen Mansion, Bayview Event Center, and the American Swedish Institute. Some of those we liked, some of those we didn't like, but all of them were oh-so-expensive! Well, they weren't actually that expensive in terms of wedding costs, but the scale of wedding costs as opposed to normal, everyday costs is extraordinary! I suppose, as my sister's very wise friend said, that this kind of thing is why people work hard and save money on the everyday things--it's for stuff like vacations, houses and weddings and if you work hard and save up the money, there is no reason to feel bad about spending money on a wedding.
Or perhaps the wedding industry is getting their message to sink in to my subconsious! I very much want both things: a simple, basic wedding that costs no money, and a lovely grand affair with all of our friends and family present. I want to keep my last name as a symbol to the world that I am my own woman and that I don't need to follow anyone's traditions, and I want to take Ryan's name because I love him and it seems romantic and that some parts of me really wants to have the "team name". Mostly, I just want to have a date, and a site picked out and set. I want that big thing done so that we can find a person to marry us, and a person to do the flowers and to make us a cake, etc etc etc.... I am almost beyond caring about the cost, just to find a place that will convince me that they have things on their end handled.
I am excited and nervous, nervous, nervous about the election on Tuesday. As a liberal person it's been easy, the past 10 years, to get excited about an election that looks like it'll go well for "our side" and then have it all fall apart. So nothing's for sure, nothing's a given. I want Norm Coleman out of office. I loathe him. Keith Ellison is pretty much a lock for re-election; good on 'im.
I think we are starting to get down to brass tacks on wedding things. We've gone to look at a number of places: Blaisdell Manor, Van Dusen Mansion, Bayview Event Center, and the American Swedish Institute. Some of those we liked, some of those we didn't like, but all of them were oh-so-expensive! Well, they weren't actually that expensive in terms of wedding costs, but the scale of wedding costs as opposed to normal, everyday costs is extraordinary! I suppose, as my sister's very wise friend said, that this kind of thing is why people work hard and save money on the everyday things--it's for stuff like vacations, houses and weddings and if you work hard and save up the money, there is no reason to feel bad about spending money on a wedding.
Or perhaps the wedding industry is getting their message to sink in to my subconsious! I very much want both things: a simple, basic wedding that costs no money, and a lovely grand affair with all of our friends and family present. I want to keep my last name as a symbol to the world that I am my own woman and that I don't need to follow anyone's traditions, and I want to take Ryan's name because I love him and it seems romantic and that some parts of me really wants to have the "team name". Mostly, I just want to have a date, and a site picked out and set. I want that big thing done so that we can find a person to marry us, and a person to do the flowers and to make us a cake, etc etc etc.... I am almost beyond caring about the cost, just to find a place that will convince me that they have things on their end handled.
I am excited and nervous, nervous, nervous about the election on Tuesday. As a liberal person it's been easy, the past 10 years, to get excited about an election that looks like it'll go well for "our side" and then have it all fall apart. So nothing's for sure, nothing's a given. I want Norm Coleman out of office. I loathe him. Keith Ellison is pretty much a lock for re-election; good on 'im.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Do I really have to go to work every day?
I jest, I jest. But it has been quite an adjustment to getting up every day between 6:15 and 6:30 and heading in to work. I'm enjoying working at SUPERVALU pretty well, I've been in a lot of training thus far and have done only a bit of what I imagine will be my eventual "work". Some of the training is quite interesting, like research on consumer segmentation. Some of the training is deadly dull, like some of the internals which involve sitting in a windowless conference room for several hours, watching an instructor use a website or program.
In other news, I don't have much to report. We had a lovely weekend in Carpenter--we took Ann out for the big 21st bithday, we went to church, and Jordan took some engagement photos of us (hopefully some of them turned out well! And I mean that not in a technical sense, but in a I-hope-I-think-I-look-good way, of course. Jordan is a very talented photographer!) and, true to form, I forgot my coat at the Glanzer farm house. I think that if I were to drop off the face of the earth today, the Glanzers would remember me best as "the girl who left things at our house". I didn't need the jacket and it could have stayed in South Dakota until we went back, but before I even knew it, it was in the mail!
Tomorrow, Jason is scheduled to come over to watch Game 1 of the World Series. I'm very excited that the match-up is Rays-Phillies. Nothing could have made the baseball season end on a lower note than if the Red Sox were in the Fall Classic. This weekend, I am trying to schedule tours of potential wedding sites so that we can hopefully pin down a date soon!
In other news, I don't have much to report. We had a lovely weekend in Carpenter--we took Ann out for the big 21st bithday, we went to church, and Jordan took some engagement photos of us (hopefully some of them turned out well! And I mean that not in a technical sense, but in a I-hope-I-think-I-look-good way, of course. Jordan is a very talented photographer!) and, true to form, I forgot my coat at the Glanzer farm house. I think that if I were to drop off the face of the earth today, the Glanzers would remember me best as "the girl who left things at our house". I didn't need the jacket and it could have stayed in South Dakota until we went back, but before I even knew it, it was in the mail!
Tomorrow, Jason is scheduled to come over to watch Game 1 of the World Series. I'm very excited that the match-up is Rays-Phillies. Nothing could have made the baseball season end on a lower note than if the Red Sox were in the Fall Classic. This weekend, I am trying to schedule tours of potential wedding sites so that we can hopefully pin down a date soon!
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Nervous
I start my new job tomorrow, and I'm nervous! What if no one likes me? What if I have to eat lunch in the cafeteria by myself? I'm not going to have any friends!!!
It really feels like the first day of school to me. I'm so nervous. I don't know what it's going to be like! My first day at HTA was similarly stressful and that was SUCH a small company. This is a huge company!!!
Sad as it is--although all the unemployment time made me a little crazy and bored, I really got used to having the free time. I would wake up around 9, bum around on the internet, apply for jobs, check the mail, make lunch, maybe hang out with a friend, apply for a few more jobs, watch TV and knit, and then wait for Ryan to get home and make dinner.
Not anymore, my friends! I am going to have to get back into the swing of things of waking up at 6:30, being at work by 8am, working working working, lunch, working, working, working, and then coming home. So weird! So normal! So.... profitable!
It's been a pretty good weekend of baseball, football, drinking, Indian food, snuggling, and knitting. Satisfactory, but I'm so weirded out that I have to put on dressy clothes tomorrow and go to a JOB! It'll be good though. Ryan and I need money to pay for our wedding!
Oh, man, wedding stuff. I have been having some pretty intense wedding dreams lately. A week ago I had a dream where it was a week before the wedding and we hadn't planned ANYTHING. Not a reception hall, or a ceremony site, or a caterer, or a DJ, or anything! And I would tell people about my problems and they would say, "Sorry, dear! You should have planned this earlier!"
On Thursday night I had a dream where Ryan and I were at a wedding expo, and there was a huuuuuuuuge line of caterers that had samples of chicken, fish and beef. You had to try EVERY dish before you could move on, and a lot of the caterers were doing things, so you could only get some samples....and it was so stressful! I had to go back and forth and back and forth to try to get every sample from every caterer so that I could move one to different caterers!
On Friday night I dreamt that I ordered ORANGE bridesmaid dresses! In the dream, this salesgirl convinced me that orange dresses would go really well with purple, green and blue everything else (clearly my subconsious is insane) and I believed it. Then, in the dream, Sarah and I went to meet the salesgirl to pick up the dresses and Sarah FLIPPED OUT at me. She was so mad over the orange dresses! I told her about the dream on Saturday morning and she said, "You better believe that I'd be mad over orange bridesmaid dresses!!"
So, obviously, my subconsious is VERY upset at me that I haven't been very "on" about wedding planning and my inner self thinks that I am dropping the ball on the whole thing!
To counter my subconscious, I HAVE been wedding planning! I went to a meeting at the Blaisdell Manor and if was very pretty and pretty ridiculously expensive! Ryan and I are still trying to figure out what we think is an "acceptable" amount to spend on our wedding, but it sure would be nice if either the Glanzers or the Poulters stumbled upon a previously-unknown fortune and paying for everything, no questions asked.
Alas.
Wish me luck on my first day tomorrow!
It really feels like the first day of school to me. I'm so nervous. I don't know what it's going to be like! My first day at HTA was similarly stressful and that was SUCH a small company. This is a huge company!!!
Sad as it is--although all the unemployment time made me a little crazy and bored, I really got used to having the free time. I would wake up around 9, bum around on the internet, apply for jobs, check the mail, make lunch, maybe hang out with a friend, apply for a few more jobs, watch TV and knit, and then wait for Ryan to get home and make dinner.
Not anymore, my friends! I am going to have to get back into the swing of things of waking up at 6:30, being at work by 8am, working working working, lunch, working, working, working, and then coming home. So weird! So normal! So.... profitable!
It's been a pretty good weekend of baseball, football, drinking, Indian food, snuggling, and knitting. Satisfactory, but I'm so weirded out that I have to put on dressy clothes tomorrow and go to a JOB! It'll be good though. Ryan and I need money to pay for our wedding!
Oh, man, wedding stuff. I have been having some pretty intense wedding dreams lately. A week ago I had a dream where it was a week before the wedding and we hadn't planned ANYTHING. Not a reception hall, or a ceremony site, or a caterer, or a DJ, or anything! And I would tell people about my problems and they would say, "Sorry, dear! You should have planned this earlier!"
On Thursday night I had a dream where Ryan and I were at a wedding expo, and there was a huuuuuuuuge line of caterers that had samples of chicken, fish and beef. You had to try EVERY dish before you could move on, and a lot of the caterers were doing things, so you could only get some samples....and it was so stressful! I had to go back and forth and back and forth to try to get every sample from every caterer so that I could move one to different caterers!
On Friday night I dreamt that I ordered ORANGE bridesmaid dresses! In the dream, this salesgirl convinced me that orange dresses would go really well with purple, green and blue everything else (clearly my subconsious is insane) and I believed it. Then, in the dream, Sarah and I went to meet the salesgirl to pick up the dresses and Sarah FLIPPED OUT at me. She was so mad over the orange dresses! I told her about the dream on Saturday morning and she said, "You better believe that I'd be mad over orange bridesmaid dresses!!"
So, obviously, my subconsious is VERY upset at me that I haven't been very "on" about wedding planning and my inner self thinks that I am dropping the ball on the whole thing!
To counter my subconscious, I HAVE been wedding planning! I went to a meeting at the Blaisdell Manor and if was very pretty and pretty ridiculously expensive! Ryan and I are still trying to figure out what we think is an "acceptable" amount to spend on our wedding, but it sure would be nice if either the Glanzers or the Poulters stumbled upon a previously-unknown fortune and paying for everything, no questions asked.
Alas.
Wish me luck on my first day tomorrow!
Monday, October 6, 2008
A job, a blog, and a gift registry
• Yes, it's true! On Monday, I start a one-year contract for Supervalu Corporation. They own Cub Foods and many other supermarket chains, as well as produce their own generic-brand grocery products. My title is something incredibly generic like "Business Specialist" but the important part is that I'll be doing your general exciting office stuff, and making more money than I did at HTA.
I'll be working in the building that used to house Best Buy's corporate headquarters, and it's really cool! Very bold colors, there's a test kitchen where they perform consumer marketing panels, and it's a huge building. It'll be a very different environment from the teeny little office that HTA was in. With any luck, I will have coworkers who are around my age!
• I've been posting at Babes Love Baseball for a week or two now, and I'm having a blast! Most days there are lots of emails that go back-and-forth between myself and other cool, baseball-loving girls. It's awesome and I'm having a great time!
• Yesterday, Ryan and I went to Target at the Quarry to start our gift registry (which you can view here). It was exhausting! I thought it would be such a fun, lovely time for us as a couple. It was, for the most part: we picked out a sweet tv (someone buy it for us! ;)) and a DVD-VHS combo player, and sheets, and a duvet, and towels and bath mats and place mats....
...and somewhere in there I became overwhelmed by all of the choices! How many of each thing ought we register for? What colors (apparently that's blues and greens)? Should we go for mix-and-match colors or all the same? HOW DO WE DO THIS?????
Now that I'm thinking about it while sitting on the couch, it doesn't seem so hard. But in the moment, after having been there for an hour discussing the benefits of registering or not for luggage and tool sets, it seemed like mission impossible.
The real difficulty here is that Ryan and I don't know where we'll be living in six months, never mind six years from now! So things like shelves and storage which we may or may not want and find useful in our new place, we don't know if we will have room for them, if they'll be useful in our home, etc. I think we'll be living in an apartment for a few years before we can buy any kind of house.
Ryan did a great job of trying to keep me calm and keep us on track, but I understand that he doesn't really care about all this stuff. I don't know that I care all that much about it, either. But I know that I want place mats and dishes and a nice rug and all that stuff, I just haven't figured out quite what I want. There are too many choices! Usually when I shop for "big ticket"-type things, I research and research and find reviews and opinions until my eyes bleed. But I can't possibly do that for every little item we'll be registering for or I'll go insane!
Seriously, buy us the TV. Or a kegerator! That would be awesome.
I'll be working in the building that used to house Best Buy's corporate headquarters, and it's really cool! Very bold colors, there's a test kitchen where they perform consumer marketing panels, and it's a huge building. It'll be a very different environment from the teeny little office that HTA was in. With any luck, I will have coworkers who are around my age!
• I've been posting at Babes Love Baseball for a week or two now, and I'm having a blast! Most days there are lots of emails that go back-and-forth between myself and other cool, baseball-loving girls. It's awesome and I'm having a great time!
• Yesterday, Ryan and I went to Target at the Quarry to start our gift registry (which you can view here). It was exhausting! I thought it would be such a fun, lovely time for us as a couple. It was, for the most part: we picked out a sweet tv (someone buy it for us! ;)) and a DVD-VHS combo player, and sheets, and a duvet, and towels and bath mats and place mats....
...and somewhere in there I became overwhelmed by all of the choices! How many of each thing ought we register for? What colors (apparently that's blues and greens)? Should we go for mix-and-match colors or all the same? HOW DO WE DO THIS?????
Now that I'm thinking about it while sitting on the couch, it doesn't seem so hard. But in the moment, after having been there for an hour discussing the benefits of registering or not for luggage and tool sets, it seemed like mission impossible.
The real difficulty here is that Ryan and I don't know where we'll be living in six months, never mind six years from now! So things like shelves and storage which we may or may not want and find useful in our new place, we don't know if we will have room for them, if they'll be useful in our home, etc. I think we'll be living in an apartment for a few years before we can buy any kind of house.
Ryan did a great job of trying to keep me calm and keep us on track, but I understand that he doesn't really care about all this stuff. I don't know that I care all that much about it, either. But I know that I want place mats and dishes and a nice rug and all that stuff, I just haven't figured out quite what I want. There are too many choices! Usually when I shop for "big ticket"-type things, I research and research and find reviews and opinions until my eyes bleed. But I can't possibly do that for every little item we'll be registering for or I'll go insane!
Seriously, buy us the TV. Or a kegerator! That would be awesome.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Funemployment
I forgot to mention yesterday that Sarah had two equally wonderful quotes when I told her that I was laid off:
"You'll have so much time to knit now!"
"Oh! Now's the perfect time to have a BABY!"
I'll let you guess which one is not happening.
"You'll have so much time to knit now!"
"Oh! Now's the perfect time to have a BABY!"
I'll let you guess which one is not happening.
Monday, June 30, 2008
Unemployment
I love irony, I really do. But it's almost too much irony to handle, that the day I make this post, the day after I really commit myself to "HTA Education", I get laid off.
I should love it! I mean, the reason I went into my boss' office was to ask him if he could spend some time with me teaching me a few things, there were a few topics I had pertinent questions on. Instead: "I don't think that's going to work out. Have a seat."
Oh.
I'm not sad, really, but I might still be in shock. I was not loving my job there, and the lay-off part wasn't exactly a shock to me; I knew that the work was not coming in like it had been (due mostly to the salesperson for our team leaving the company earlier this year) and I was concerned about working enough to keep my health insurance.
I am angry, I think, because there was this discussion of communication. Or the lack of communication, from my end. This boggled my mind in my firing-meeting and I'm still upset about it, to teh extent that I let myself be. Because I was meeting with my team members at least once per week and emailing them of every pertinent update to projects. And THEY weren't informing ME of pertinent things. On my third-to-last day of work I had a really frustrating exchange with a coworker:
Her: Lauren, did you do the research for X and Y accounts?
Me: I didn't know that there was anything new on those accounts. So, no, I haven't.
Her: [dramatic sigh] I emailed you about it last week.
Me: [searching through Outlook] I don't remember any emails about that. Do you remember what day you sent it?
Her: Not really... Wednesday, maybe?
Me: I can't find anything about that in my email. Are you sure you sent it to me?
Her: Oh, well, I guess I didn't send it.
Me: Okay, send it to me now and I'll get going on it.
So, my senior coworkers can't remember what work they have and have NOT communicated to me and I get shitcanned? I'm the one who was not communicative? That seems fair.
When I really think about it, I'm glad to be out of that environment. I appreciate all of the opportunities HTA gave me, I do, but the organization is crumbling from within. I had a verbally abusive coworker, an absentee boss (who also, in a stunning example of organizational inefficiency, also functioned as HR) and a host of coworkers who seemed to think that I was either lazy or stupid, and some of them probably thought both.
I'm still sort of shell-shocked that I have to go through the whole job searching process again--it's exhausting! But I think it will be for the best. I just have to keep my spirits up.
I should love it! I mean, the reason I went into my boss' office was to ask him if he could spend some time with me teaching me a few things, there were a few topics I had pertinent questions on. Instead: "I don't think that's going to work out. Have a seat."
Oh.
I'm not sad, really, but I might still be in shock. I was not loving my job there, and the lay-off part wasn't exactly a shock to me; I knew that the work was not coming in like it had been (due mostly to the salesperson for our team leaving the company earlier this year) and I was concerned about working enough to keep my health insurance.
I am angry, I think, because there was this discussion of communication. Or the lack of communication, from my end. This boggled my mind in my firing-meeting and I'm still upset about it, to teh extent that I let myself be. Because I was meeting with my team members at least once per week and emailing them of every pertinent update to projects. And THEY weren't informing ME of pertinent things. On my third-to-last day of work I had a really frustrating exchange with a coworker:
Her: Lauren, did you do the research for X and Y accounts?
Me: I didn't know that there was anything new on those accounts. So, no, I haven't.
Her: [dramatic sigh] I emailed you about it last week.
Me: [searching through Outlook] I don't remember any emails about that. Do you remember what day you sent it?
Her: Not really... Wednesday, maybe?
Me: I can't find anything about that in my email. Are you sure you sent it to me?
Her: Oh, well, I guess I didn't send it.
Me: Okay, send it to me now and I'll get going on it.
So, my senior coworkers can't remember what work they have and have NOT communicated to me and I get shitcanned? I'm the one who was not communicative? That seems fair.
When I really think about it, I'm glad to be out of that environment. I appreciate all of the opportunities HTA gave me, I do, but the organization is crumbling from within. I had a verbally abusive coworker, an absentee boss (who also, in a stunning example of organizational inefficiency, also functioned as HR) and a host of coworkers who seemed to think that I was either lazy or stupid, and some of them probably thought both.
I'm still sort of shell-shocked that I have to go through the whole job searching process again--it's exhausting! But I think it will be for the best. I just have to keep my spirits up.
unemployed life, in one picture
Clockwise from top:
Bowl and cup from bran cereal and grapefruit juice, 9 am.
Arrested Development, Season 2.
Fat Tire Amber Ale.
Purple wool scarf, in progress.
Cell phone that desperately needs replacing.
Purple wool hat, in progress.
Economist magazine.
DVD and TV remotes.
Monster.com.
Friday, June 20, 2008
Adventures in Telecom
From one of the books I'm reading for work. Too funny not to share!
"The microprocessor is the processing component of the small, but powerful microcomputer. The fact that microcomputers are relatively inexpensive has made it possible for individuals and small businesses to own them. Microcomputers, also called personal computers (PCs) or micros, may be used as standalone computers or linked to a network via telecommunications lines.
"The smallest of all computers, microcomputers are now more numerous than all other computers. They are being used for every kind of task imaginable--from keeping records to preparing mathematical models of automobiles, from playing games to plotting the geographic levels of the earth for oil exploration. Their future applications are probably beyond our wildest imaginiations."
- Telecommunications: Concepts, Development and Management. 2nd ed, 1990
"The microprocessor is the processing component of the small, but powerful microcomputer. The fact that microcomputers are relatively inexpensive has made it possible for individuals and small businesses to own them. Microcomputers, also called personal computers (PCs) or micros, may be used as standalone computers or linked to a network via telecommunications lines.
"The smallest of all computers, microcomputers are now more numerous than all other computers. They are being used for every kind of task imaginable--from keeping records to preparing mathematical models of automobiles, from playing games to plotting the geographic levels of the earth for oil exploration. Their future applications are probably beyond our wildest imaginiations."
- Telecommunications: Concepts, Development and Management. 2nd ed, 1990
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Stressed
Exactly 24 hours from now, I will be having my annual review.
You'd be hard pressed to find a more nervous, tense and generally stressed-to-the-breaking-point person than me right now (except, probably, me in about 20 hours from now, ha!).
Question is, why am I so stressed by this? I am, by all known accounts, a good employee who has vastly exceeded the expectations laid out for her when she was hired. I took on more in my first few months than they likely thought I would have taken on in a whole year.
On the other hand, I come in late more often than not and have gone way over the budgeted hours on a few projects recently.
My rebuttal, should those things come up tomorrow: I also stay late, more often than not, and do work on the weekends; I am younger and newer and less experienced than my colleagues, so it's natural that I am slower at some things. Not only that, but not once has someone told me how many hours have been budgeted for things that I'm doing. So, I end up spending as many hours as it takes!
I'm also dreading this because my boss tends to favor the "I'll ask you questions about your performance and have you review yourself" style of review. I'm notoriously hard on myself, so I'm afraid that I'll spend the 90 minutes trashing my performance over the last year.
You'd be hard pressed to find a more nervous, tense and generally stressed-to-the-breaking-point person than me right now (except, probably, me in about 20 hours from now, ha!).
Question is, why am I so stressed by this? I am, by all known accounts, a good employee who has vastly exceeded the expectations laid out for her when she was hired. I took on more in my first few months than they likely thought I would have taken on in a whole year.
On the other hand, I come in late more often than not and have gone way over the budgeted hours on a few projects recently.
My rebuttal, should those things come up tomorrow: I also stay late, more often than not, and do work on the weekends; I am younger and newer and less experienced than my colleagues, so it's natural that I am slower at some things. Not only that, but not once has someone told me how many hours have been budgeted for things that I'm doing. So, I end up spending as many hours as it takes!
I'm also dreading this because my boss tends to favor the "I'll ask you questions about your performance and have you review yourself" style of review. I'm notoriously hard on myself, so I'm afraid that I'll spend the 90 minutes trashing my performance over the last year.
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